The One I Worried From The Very First Time

Hello, sweetheart.. I know you’re doing right with ur life now, that there’s no more me at all again. And you never wanted to look at me, at us, who were look at your each step. And to be honest, this is the one i worried, from the very first time since you were with me. Seems like it’s too hard to explain one by one here, more than words to show my feeling, right now. Your kind, your smile, your laugh, your sobs, your words, your talks, your walks, your lies, your acts, everything. Your leave mixed my head just like a big storm, i’m overboard and yet ready to deepydeepydeepdrowning.  This may gonna be a temporal problem but this’s the first time you’ve given a really different  sensation in my mood and successfully gone this bad.

Do you remember when everyone pulled you down? Who saved you? I did.

Do you remember when you were full of tears? Who wiped your tears on your side? I did.

Do you remember when everyone blamed your reason? Who cared for you? i did.

Then else, did you ever think why was I’m doing it all? Because i care, when everyone don’t. now i see that i was your release. What a stupid girl am I. But you have to know this one: you’re going too far but it won’t fixed anything in your life.

Well now it’s up to you, someday you gonna fall because of your really-own-self and you’ll have nowhere to run except me and her. i don’t wanna hate anyone this time, but i beg you, please try to change. Even the change isn’t yourself, at least you make us and all smile for your old innocence that we missed for so long. I still wanna be with you, forever