Now i'm climbing the wall and you don't notice at all

I ain't gonna say about Liam, Niall or whatsoever you knew about them. Besides i'm not a directioners, though.
Leeeet me see *sniffing journal*
I got so much thing to do this semester, actually. Moreover, the government  put the RSBI label off my school. We should've been home by 2 pm but it's not. It's only a dream maybe. I wonder how could my clock runs so unpredictably fast. Especially when Monday meets another Monday. I'm feeling left by the time. Have i been walking too slow all these time? Or is this just a sign of apocalypse like the public always relate?

The only thing i know is..i'm alive and just like live in aimlessness. Yes get ready to transform into a very pathetic person when reading my blog. Because beware, honestly, this is my runaway. Everything's possible here and nobody could stop it. I would come here when i'm feeling lost. Sometimes i think about Bella Swan, said that "Sometimes i feel like i've always stumbled up in every single decision i've made". It's not wrong either. Because i am that kind of people..who always feels stumbled, not right, improper, unsystematic, and too random. But the much i think about it, the much i will go to the bad. I got an unbelievable marks on my student report and i got to switch myself into silent mode almost a day long. I didn't talk, i didn't eat, i only did daydreams over and over again until i got into a tire.

But actually i'm very thankful to my labile-ness. Because it changes my opinion everytime, whether better or worse, but it does. So sometimes i feel so motivated, so-in-the-mood, but nevertheless, sometimes it takes me seeing the dark side of something. I think this is who i am. I am the person who got to be thrown, stepped down, bullied, underestimated by everyone to wake up and move on. I also never understand because i've ever been like this for uncounted times before and i never be recovered until now.

The fallen.
It makes someone wake up. Because there will be no such thing as wake up without the word of falling, right?
And someday someone gonna need to be fallen down by another to find his/her real own self. Cause at last i conclude that the maturity of somebody laid on how they find the powers to get him/herself up.Whether they choose to give up or not to give up, whether they pull their friends' hands or struggling by only theirselves. The fallen takes you closer to the edge, to the other side of glory. To the survivors and the losers. To the spark and the lightless. From the kind to the untamed. For the shy and for the brave.

At last. I decided. To dedicate myself as a memory.
Special. Full of mistakes. Full of learns. Marked. Smiles. Tears. Unforgettable. Regrets. Pains. Glories. Winnings. Everything. Now i'm climbing the wall without your notice at all. So let's move on.

"Never regret anything you've done. Cause in the end, it makes you who you are."