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Kopi panas, dituangkan dari cerek besi yang mengkilat.
Cangkir yang semula kosong mulai terisi, perlahan tapi pasti.
Kopi itu berjatuhan teratur, mengayun lembut, menggemericik, menggelitik telinga.
Asapnya mengepul menari-nari.

Cangkirku pun terisi setengah penuh, menyisakan aku yang ragu-ragu. Haruskah kubiarkan saja?

Segera kulepas bimbang dan membiarkan sang kopi mengisi cangkirku hingga penuh.
Ia meluap sedikit, meluber ke meja-meja.
Kubiarkan saja.

Kupandangi cangkirku yang penuh.
Ingin kuicip namun kepul panasnya membuatku enggan.
Kubiarkan saja,
biar kutunggu hingga hangat.

Asap itu kemudian menghilang.
Terlalu cepat berubah wujud menjadi titik-titik air di udara.
Panasnya terlalu segera ingin lepas bebas di angkasa.
Kopiku mendingin.
Tak tertolong lagi.
Aku...
sudah enggan menikmatinya.


Barangkali kita pun hanya sesingkat rentang antara kopi panas dan berubahnya ia menjadi angin.
Yang lalu kita hirup dan menyesakkan dada.
Begitu singkatnya hingga tak sempat kunikmati.


Barangkali jika kau kopi, bolehlah aku menjadi cangkir.
Tempatmu bernaung meski sementara.

Things I Could’ve Missed

Each of human beings (normally) given a pair of eyes. They could only see what’s visible. You  may hear that some others have their abilities to see something generally unseen. But luckily (yeah, i call that a luck), i’m not those some others. I’m just another ordinary human beings. I also am given a pair of eyes that can see visible things. Those eyes function as well, but actually there’s one thing i might regret having.

My eyes can’t see what’s going on behind me.

When i ask everyone why can’t I see behind, they just tell me that it’s like i’m asking why the earth rotates. They say that’s how the life works. It manipulates you, make you seem smarter and foolish at once. While you’re doing something, somebody out there might have done their own stuffs without your permission and you would have no idea how far those stuffs had gone.

I’m sad knowing my eyes could only be used to look forward.

And here i am starting to brag. Not that i’m not grateful. But as a human, i’m given rights to wish some wishes that nobody could assure will they be granted. What do I wish for? I wish i witness thing i shouldn’t have missed. I wish i could reveal secrets that are concealed from me, secrets that recognize me as a stranger. But again, I’m only human. And wishes that I’ve wished seemed to be impossible. Those wishes belong to God, and did I just wish myself to have God’s power? I know the answer is a ‘heck no’. As a human being i could only speculate, i could only think about relativity including all the maybes and perhaps it makes.

So, if I should sum up it all and make some conclusion, then it goes like this.

We are all human beings. We know we were born for some reasons, but we never know what and which reason. But let me tell you what I thought, this might break your heart so you better switch the tab or lost to somewhere else. I’m going to say that you can’t have everybody on your side, no matter how much they mean to you. It might be they don’t feel the same about you and they just wanna get rid of you from the very beginning. And another miserable fact is, that you can’t easily know what you wana know. Some facts are purposedly hidden from you, don’t care if it’s good for you or bad for you, they are just hidden that sometimes you have to put yourself on a long and painful journey to finally unveil them.

One day, we’ll come up that we are already drenched of sweats that we want to give up but we can’t. We can’t because we keep on reminiscing the past and replay the once-thrown-to-the-garbage cassette. That day we finally know that we’ve been a foolish for too long. We’re tricked by not-so-smarter-than-you trickster and we regret for being so stupid. We’ll start to blame on life why didn’t it give us more eyes to see, maybe some eyes that work like radar so we could easily know just anything that goes on. We’re warned whenever the danger comes so we could anticipate for any kinds of destruction.

But, we aren’t meant to work like that. We’re all human, and we’re meant to be heartbroken. Sometimes we learn, sometimes we cry, and the rest we spend by regretting. I proposed for a radar to God but He seems like taking it as a joke, and i hate that. I hate that because of me--my wish, all of us don’t have that kind of radar, that we can’t anticipate and we could've finally invaded then eventually destructed into pieces. Disposable ruins.

Look at us, look at me how fragile and breakable I am. You could just break me up if you want to and I won’t be angry since I’m too an understanding.

So, in the end I know I could only wish I don’t miss a thing. Whether it's forever a wish....i never know.