Sorry

Hey :)
No i'm not coming to ruin your life any worse. Neither to show off any stuffs like a saleswoman, i know you hate me already. I'm here just want to make everything clear, that maybe..you were right. Maybe all these time, you've been absolutely right about everything. About myself who is somehow overdramatic, childish, arrogant, selfish, stubborn, introvert, take things without any concern to its risk, see something just from where I stand, maybe it's all wrong but one thing... You're wrong about me hating you. Cause i never did. Not even once.

I know you've been staring in the mirror, asking it 'what thing is possibly wrong in me?'. But you got no answers, up until now. And i know you'll never find that bravery to tell everyone what's been wrong inside of you. I know you've been wondering how could you be in this place, standing alone, watching me preaching 'bout goodbyes all day long. I know you don't know how to explain things to me, and that one creature. Everything that you think i don't know, i quietly know without letting you know that i know.

Honestly, i'm just a person just like you. I'm a homeless and hopeless wanderer. I've nobody that maybe waits me anywhere. I'm just a lonely wanderer, talking to my notes. Nobody to share, nobody will care. They think their life is just too precious to be touched by a wanderer's story. I also don't know where to run, where to go right now, because you're no longer here. You were the person i found when i was on the road, finding who i am. But right here when i already know myself, i don't even realize that you've been gone for so long. I drowned into my dreams of happy ending, too much 'til I left everyone i used to know.


You know what?
Have you ever think how do i feel when i saw you having a new life with someone else? I thought i felt broken, i thought i felt like it was all useless...and goddamn someone named 'you'. But finally i realize what life has taught me. I've being let by it to met you, to know you more. You maybe can't believe that i didn't even know that you exist. Then, one day you came around and walked into my life and got together in my journey. You were a heal for every pain i felt. I should've thank you for being there at that time and suddenly be my everything. I didn't know how, but you just did

But look at me, i'm just a failed Cinderella. I'm not a princess and this ain't a fairy tale. You are not supposed to be my prince that now it's too late for you to chase me by all of your white horses. I know that i will never be good enough for you. Maybe i'm just a fool girl. But sorry, i'm not Rihanna and i don't love the way you lie to me. I only hope that you'll be happy with everything you have now, cause i'm happy with it. You'll be forever my secret. This will just be for you and me til the end. I'm sorry for everything i put you through. I'm happy now living with regrets everyday, everyday i asleep thinking of you and woke up just the same. I won't do it anymore, i'm done with everything about you. I should've know i've just been being a burden to you.

I'm sorry I have to walk out from your life. I wish this is the rightest time to say these things to you. We'll meet again somewhere in the future if He let us to.

I'm sorry. Now set me free.