Morning Is Never This Good

Hello, i just took a bath. It’s Monday morning, 7.40am when i write this. Yeah, i’ve left for so long and now I’m back with a lotta stories i wanna tell. Then, it was 20 – 11 -2011 , perfect day do tie, when i got my heart broke and puzzled up for an hour. No, that’s such not important to tell. Then y’all know what? I stayed on my Grand-uncle (How to say mbah-lik in English?), it’s in Garut, tasikmalaya. I love been there. It’s such a cold little rural town. I’ll out his house and find a beautiful scenery of Papandayan Mountain. With my Mom and Dad, Grandma, and my Mbahlik-mbahlik we went from Madiun Railstation about 7.30pm and got Tasikmalaya Railstation about 3.45am. Fast, eh? I just realized that lil thing, too. Hehe

Enjoy, Readers!

Background Song : Perfect Blue - Sungha Jung

Udut?? Is it different with ‘Ujud’? Haha, this is fun ladies and gentlemen.

Yeah, it’s just a little, we really brought ‘em up. And the next pics taken on 21-11-2011, on Garut, near Tasikmalaya.

An old Oak ..

 Actually, there was wallets in the air, but my cam just can’t reach it. Hehe

 Haha, i love this wunn :)

Finally, i know that ‘Otista’ is the acronyme of ‘Otto Iskandar Dinata’. What a clever girl.

Taken by Samsung C3-033i Selcam, 21 – 11 -2011, and they’re not edited anyclicks.

고마워! Itte-rasshai :)

A day to remember ...

This is been i left for year. No other, just listen.

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

 Come Back to Me – David Cook

Dear September,

Speak up, Dear, cause I cannot hear you, I need to know why we don't trust them..

Explain to me this conspiracy against me!

And tell me how I've lost my power ..

Where can I turn? Cause I need something more

Surrounded by uncertainties I'm so unsure of

Tell me why I feel so alone cause I need to Know to whom do I owe

Conspiracy - Paramore

Dear October,

Summer has come and passed

The innocent can never last

wake me up when September ends ..

here comes, the rain again falling from the stars

drenched in my pain again becoming who we are..

as my memory rests, but never forgets what I lost

wake me up when September ends ..

Wake Me Up When September Ends - Greenday

I still fell asleep. And still kinda didn’t want to realize anything. Any thing. Until you came a night when i just memorized all the moment we’ve been left behind. Each tears, each step, each crack of laugh, each smile, each gaze, each word, each vowel, each promise, each bullshit, each you, each me, and each us. I’ve counted them, one to uncountable.

And Dear November,

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family.
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night --
The first time you ever saw me cry.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.
All the time.

Back To December – Taylor Swift

Oh, November ..

It's so long were the nights when my days once revolved around you. Counting my footsteps, praying the floor won’t fall through, again. My mother accused me of losing my mind, but I swore I was fine.

You paint me a blue sky, and go back and turn it to rain. And I lived in your chess game,  but you changed the rules everyday. Wonderin’ which version of you I might get on the phone, tonight.
Well I stopped pickin’ up and this song is to let you know why.


Well maybe it’s me, and my blind optimism to blame. Or maybe it’s you and your sick need to give love and take it away. And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand. And I'll look back in regret how I ignored when they said 'Run as fast as you can’.

Dear  Someone, I see it all now it was wrong, don’t you think fifteen’s too young to be played by your dark, twisted games. When I loved you so, I should've known.

You are an expert at sorry and keeping the lines blurry, never impressed by me acing your tests. All the girls tha you run dry have tired lifeless eyes, cause you burned them out.

But I took your matches before fire could catch me, so don’t look now, I’m shining like fireworks over your sad empty town.

Dear Someone,

I see it all now that you're gone

Don't you think I was too young

To be messed with
The girl in the dress

Cried the whole way home, I should've known ...

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The One I Worried From The Very First Time

Hello, sweetheart.. I know you’re doing right with ur life now, that there’s no more me at all again. And you never wanted to look at me, at us, who were look at your each step. And to be honest, this is the one i worried, from the very first time since you were with me. Seems like it’s too hard to explain one by one here, more than words to show my feeling, right now. Your kind, your smile, your laugh, your sobs, your words, your talks, your walks, your lies, your acts, everything. Your leave mixed my head just like a big storm, i’m overboard and yet ready to deepydeepydeepdrowning.  This may gonna be a temporal problem but this’s the first time you’ve given a really different  sensation in my mood and successfully gone this bad.

Do you remember when everyone pulled you down? Who saved you? I did.

Do you remember when you were full of tears? Who wiped your tears on your side? I did.

Do you remember when everyone blamed your reason? Who cared for you? i did.

Then else, did you ever think why was I’m doing it all? Because i care, when everyone don’t. now i see that i was your release. What a stupid girl am I. But you have to know this one: you’re going too far but it won’t fixed anything in your life.

Well now it’s up to you, someday you gonna fall because of your really-own-self and you’ll have nowhere to run except me and her. i don’t wanna hate anyone this time, but i beg you, please try to change. Even the change isn’t yourself, at least you make us and all smile for your old innocence that we missed for so long. I still wanna be with you, forever