A Dramatic Turnaway to 16

In order to be a legend, we should start everything from nothing. As simple as you can say 'from zero to hero'. Now i'm a totally change person--upcoming hero, Amen. When building reputation is the goal, i mean not those kinda reputation but i'm sure you got what i mean. Walking with sun over my head, handwashing, cooking, no internet access that at last forced me to use pulse, drilling myself with books 24/7 were just being my meal everyday. And do you know my principle now? No weak, no pain, no mercy. Just what kungfu holds.


No doubt, this is a post about my birthday. My sweet 16 and also my sweetest birthday ever. Now that i'm away from my parents, my brother, my all families. Knowing myself trying to stand tall among a great war of my life. Kay,

and it was August 2 in the early morning on fasting month. In fact i was so tired of doing unending tasks. We did them all and decided to sleep at Rahma's room, with me, Adi, Dilia, and Miranda. It was a super-windy night. My laundries blown away by a great wind. The dorm became so much horror--or yes you can say that we are a newbie and of course we're easily scared by rumors. I was waiting for Pak Bombat when suddenly someone knocked Rahma's door--it was him. But dang! He didn't bring my sahur food. I thought i've told Adi  to message him but it was a miscommunication. Haha~ So then the kind Pak Bombat turned back to his house to have me some meal. 5 minutes then, then i've gotten my food. I did eat, but everyone leave. I didn't even noticed that it might be a trick or whatever is that. If you believe--I forgot if it was my birthday. I was alone at Rahma's room. My cellphone dead. I was shivering and put my blanket, ate all by myself. Then Rahma came back, Miranda either. But they didn't even talk to me. I was silenced. Okay. 10 minutes. Then someone knocked the door. I opened it and ..

Happy birthday to you.. Happy birthday to you..
Happy bithday dear Ulid.. Happy birthday to you..


Adi. Dilia. Oh you both looks sooo pretty with candlelight ray through your face. They brought 3 leftover roti sisir and we ate it together :) And how fool was i, no picture guys.
I did nothing but smiling. I was so touched. So. Touched.


Then the evening i had a plan with 10HOOLIGANS to have buka bersama at Lombok Idjo resto madiun. It was a pretty-ancient-supercrowded place with a yummiest kremesan chicken i've ever tasted. We all gathered without Rengga the class leader. But it was a warm rendezvous as always, Nanie joined even she's not moslem. I was just torned my chicken when someone held my shoulder, i turned, i saw Adi bringing a beautiful cake. Then everyone sang Happy Birthday song for me.

I was going to cry since i just knew them all and what i got? I got a special present, you guys, this warm friendship, your hugs, and also that cake. So what should i say then? I love you. I love you, guys and it never goes this bad.


August 4.
A day when i should go Ponorogo to attend a dinner with all members of SMP Terpadu's 7th batch at Bangor resto. The comers are unexpected. They are a lot. Jimmy got frustated of collecting money, but he seemed happy since he got money on his hand. Haha. I met my old friends, my hunting friends, my band buddies, my kpop-er colonies, everyone including him.
We were eating delicious fried rice with sausage and lettuces, also the legendary beverage--Iced Tea. I was chatting with Afan, my huge drummer, since we had a very little time even just to greet each other. Also Aan, my second bobby and Enggar, my older-little brother and also my mate. We were getting warmer when Dila, Alya, Ayuk walked from distance, sang happy birthday, brought cake, and candle.

My wishes told, my candle blown, my first cake was for Ghozy--who was also the birthday boy, my best friend, my Kakak, my one i never give up, my diary. Happy birthday ya, kak.. :)

Then, jadilah kita coret-coretan pake krim. Wajahku jadi riot deh.

A plain day, or I thought it was before, turned out to

 be one of the greatest moment in my life.


I didn't even know how to describe what I felt.

Happy was the simplest word.

This nite was flawless, don’t you let it go

June 9.

Hari peringatan terakhir untuk kita menyebut nama SMP Terpadu sebagai “sekolahku”. Menyakitkan, karena hari itu adalah hari pelepasan. Ya, kami dilepaskan. Mengapa? karena tak ada lagi yang perlu dilakukan disini selain melangkah dan melepas semua kenangan itu.

Aku tak tega, aku tahu kau pun juga sama. Kita sama-sama tak tega untuk melepas. Semua yang kita lalui begitu berharga bagiku. Ketika senja tak lagi indah kita pun saling berpelukan dan melepaskan segala peluh, melepas segala keluh. Kau kemudian menatapku dan berkata “Jangan lupakan aku.” Mungkin kau gila karena kau tahu jawabannya. Bagaimana mungkin aku lupa denganmu, kalian. Aku hidup untuk kalian, dan kalian hidup untuk menemaniku.

Seakan setiap detik berharga, kau untaikan lagi puisi itu. Rerumputan dan ilalang menyanyi syahdu seiring dengan lagu yang kau mainkan. Seisi langit menahan tangis atas kepergianmu. 

Lilin-lilin kecil melayang-layang dalam hampa kegelapan hatiku dan hatimu saat itu. Angin mendesah keras menyuruhku berhenti. Duniaku berduka. 

Aku tak mau kembali dalam kesepian. Aku tak mau lagi berjalan sendiri. Aku ingin berjalan bersamamu selamanya, namun tak bisa. Jalan yang dulu hanya ada satu, kini bercabang menjadi dua, tiga, sepuluh, empat puluh, bahkan sembilan puluh.

Maafkan aku, aku hanya takut kehilanganmu ..

Maafkan aku tak bisa memahami maksud amarahmu, membaca dan mengerti isi hatimu.

Ampuni aku yang telah memasuki kehidupan kalian, mencoba mencari celah dalam hatimu.

Aku tahu ku takkan bisa, aku tahu dia yang bisa menjadi seperti yang engkau minta.

Namun selama nafas berhembus, selama aku bernyawa, aku ‘kan mencoba menjadi seperti yang kau minta..

tertawalah atas perpisahan yang tragis ini kawan..

 saranghaeyo..

and even on the evening

Coming to share some pictures we hunted on a resto and also in the middle of a field at the Anggrek road. It was accidental and pretty, though. Actually i wanna review the food but i seemed too starving to complained. :D

Softdrink 3.5k

yang diatas tak ternilai harganya, yang dibawah juga..

wajah wajah mesum ..

the next are tummyfilllers.

Special Fried Rice 9k

Original Steak 9,5k

.. and the following pictures seem predictable.. yes. Pretty unwanted. Pretty cute.

TRIO MACAN. eh bukan..

cud u guess? No? Okay i'm not popular. Hehe

OKAY THIS IS JUMPING SECTION. EVERYBODY STANDUUP PUT YOUR HANDS IN THE AIR!

kurang tinggi wik! Aaargh menyesal menyesal menyesal =,=

unyu beud itu pose gue, Dila ngambilnya pas banget..

AND FINALLY, let me sing..

".. baru saja berakhir hujan di sore ini,

 menyisakan keajaiban kilauan indahnya pelangi..

tak pernah terlewatkan, dan tetap mengaguminya,

kesempatan seperti ini tak akan bisa dibeli..

bersamamu kuhabiskan waktu,

senang bisa mengenal dirimu

rasanya semua begitu sempurna

sayang untuk mengakhirinya ..

melawan keterbatasan walau sedikit kemungkinan,

takkan menyerah untuk hadapi,

hingga sedih tak mau datang lagi ..

Janganlah berganti.. Tetaplah seperti ini.."

Canon EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm

Thanks to Dila and Dewi

101

HEY READERS! Welcome to my 101st  post! Haha, kinda amazing eh. I thought that i will never get even 100 before. I decided not to post any important thing on 100th cause i don't. Once again, don't like 100 thing.
Okay in this 101st post i will give you a review about food.Actually i got it for free cause i bought a combo packet cost by 81k that contains 3 chickens, 3 rice buns, 3 Pepsis, and we got a CD from Ungu titled by 'Timeless' and also free 2 meals. My mum choosed the chocolate sundae, and me the original burger. About the burger, i like the way it looks. Such a tease. Here he is..

 

Cute? I know.

Until now i still save the paper, KFC pepsi cups, and also the sundae's plastic glass. I will rarely go there for some days forward i think.
First, the patty-buns that's how i say baked finely. It seems like you eat them in freshly baked even they are cold already. I ate them when it went cold. The lettuces were so fresh even they are clamped by the buns and also the chicken. Then, the meat, my favorite part of it was, it was good, really good as KFC always does to their chickens. It went like 'crash' when bitten. I also liked the mayonnaise sauce, they taste like rather sweet but also palatable. And finally i gave them 8 from 10.
The pepsi are good as usual, too. And about the sundae, it was the second tastiest creamy-thing ever munched by my jaw after Chocolate smoothie from A&W. It only took cost by 5k, of course i will rather choose this than A&W who put their smoothie on 15k.
.. and the chicken thing, never mind. You both know how well they are in making their chickens the most delicious than all.


Go to this place if you want to try some,
KFC Sri Ratu Jl. Pahlawan Madiun.

(if you can't find them, then you're must be blind. How can't you see the big bucket?!)

"I want my food dead. Not sick, not dying, dead." Oscar Wilde

“Am I tough? Am I strong? Am I hard-core? Absolutely.
Did I whimper with pathetic delight when I sank my teeth into my hot fried-chicken sandwich? You betcha.”  James Patterson

Future ola future

Boosh! Got ya.
How's life? I'm fine really hard. The moon is coming right now and just God knows what was that, hehe. Even had somewhat hurricane-venus these days. However we've puzzled the puzzle and fix 'em up already. Not quick. It was a-yearlike-4-days. Terrible, yes that. Ok, i'm a dumb but i'm liking to say much. "It's better to say too much than never to say what you need to say", eh? John Mayer told me. Blame him if somebody still holding that fcking "Silence is gold"-thing. As always, the next words will have no relations with sentences before this. You know me so well. Ah.. really.

May 3.
Starts from Rosalia Indah night bus agent. We got there with a lotsa hope packed on the suitcases. We were ready to rock. Yea i didn't know her feeling so let's better to say "I was gonna rock". It was a tiring 20 hours just to settled on the seat. It went better since i saw my mum beside me. She always succeed gaining my mood before. First we got the Super-executive bus class because our exact bus was in Solo. Whoa! Could you imagine that? We were feeling like in a jetplane!! Wide left to right and also back to forth recleaning-seats with 1-2 formation. Then i ask mum. "Do you think what i think mum? I'm hoping the time rotate against the clockwise. Much slower." Haha. Seriously guys, it was C that meets O, that also friend with Z who had just married Y. But the wonderfulness usually don't last forever. And it got us just to stay in the bus for 3 hours. Hah, then we met out bus at Solo. Executive-class. Not bad. And our night spended by sang around with John Lennon who danced and kissed a lot with Yoko Ono. "Dumbass conductor, we have a lot of underage brats here".

May 4.
Got there with live-surviving cab. Felt like sen no kaze ni natte blowed my face. No not wind, solar-smoke. We got blackened. And thats i want. "Got blackened of adventure" and i think i accomplished my mission.
We entered the resort named "Kinasih". First time i saw that, it seemed ratherlike a hotel than boarding school. And then the huge gate opened by the securities. Then ... feels like someone played a Busker Busker - Cherry Blossom in force. Soo.. green. Like a drama.

Oh god, this is the best school. Ever. I ever seen before. Am i will be here for sure? I was asking myself. And God knew i was fear, but ihad to do this one for everyone. Like i was got into a war with students allover Indonesia. Like i got to punch their face one-by-one but i was faceless. Then i remembered my brother said "Cemungudh kakak" then i felt filled up.

We were waiting at the dorm-will-be lobby for almost 4 hours to get the room key. I was a room with Claudia, Lidya and Lintang. So, there was 3-dia at room. Claudia, Lidya, and Maulidia. Haha fun, and it made us stay inside the room when everyone was lost in nowhere to get know some strangers, yes--sleeping. Sampe hampir magrib, without Lintang.

At nite, we all gathered in what they say Bale Bengong to had some dinnerbox and had fun with the seniors. Sang some songs and at last i got fascinated with a man from the city of nowhere. I was fallen in love with his voice. Then we went back to the dorm at 9. Then played some joke until 10. And finally slept.

I was kinda saying that It's So Hard to Say Goodbye to Yesterday. Ah..


May 5.
6 am. Got our suitcases laid down outta the roomdoor. Got ready to move on. After we done some breakfast we had a photo session and registration, then made some lines to hear some speech from the principal. And someone in my line vomitted. How sweet that she spread her weapon to somebody in front of her. Yuck. Bad start today.

8am. Academic test, math and english. not less than 100 questions had to be done in less than 2 hours, plus we had to write a story in at least 200 words. Lucky that at least they didn't say it was single count. Okay done. Another luck, i did the test along with the tomcats in the windows. Haha

11am. I was the first group called to have some interview with seniors from SA. My heart was a kinda played around with a treadmill. But with the violin player beside me (he looked like a girl actually so i amused. hehe) i felt better. We chatted with some seniors, and the one i remember is Arnold. He's a kind man i think. My name called, my life staked  the following seconds then.

12pm. having FGD with cool guys. Felt like sen no kaze ni natte lagi deh. Haha

3 pm. I went bekasi with my aunties uncle, cousins and niece there picked us up. We got jagorawi highway, it was raining and i like it. My journey ended. Even i'm still afraid, at least Allah knows i've done my best.

May 6.
went Mega Bekasi and find this picture. I bought a jeans only. I was wealthless. haha

Had some brownies making with my aunty and my mum. And got this pic. I hope you see it, brother. :)

May 7.
It was so cloudy and raining in the morning in Bekasi. I was upstairs and feeling cold by myself. I miss you.. And i think i was gonna miss you.

I went Ponorogo. With a sack of hope that you will be my future. Yes, future. I've dreamed to be with you far away before.I'm still waiting for a reason to make me stay longer there. Longer to be part of yours. Longer than anyone ever thought about.

ANTAHBERANTAH

This is the first of May 2012 when i exactly write this and i’m so glad to say that i’m fine. Kayaknya udah begitu lama aku nggak sharing, dan believe it or not kalian telah melewatkan banyak cerita sejak Februari. Oke i’ll tell ya!

Februari

Well let me tell you about my wishes:

1.       Kurus euy!

Yang akhirnya gagal dikarenakan stressing akibat ujian yang datang bertubi-tubi dan nggak kelar-kelar. Tubuh saya memerlukan banyak energi dan akhirnya hasrat makan mengalahkan otak yang selama ini berpikir keras. Okelah gak papa, minggu depan ada planning untuk belajar swim seminggu penuh bersama Nala dan Athik. Awalnya aku gak niat, tapi setelah aku tanya “Ngapain renang?” masing-masing kedua tangan mereka meliukkan sebuah bentuk yang indah, yang akhirnya menghipnotis saya untuk berkata “Aku melu!”.

Quote of the day: “Masalah ireng iso diatasi, nek masalah dhuwur ki urgent. Mergane selak entek umure gek gak modot-modot.”

2.     Being nicer.

I don’t know about this. Aku lost contact sama tement-temen terdekatku dan banyak banget masalah akhir-akhir ini.

3.       Got more trophy.

Yang ini berhasil. Ambisi saya sudah terlanjur meluap-luap. Pengen segera ke sana. Dari bidang eksak maupun enggak alhamdulillah aku bisa ngejalaninnya dengan semangat dan hasilnya juga memuaskan. Thanks God You’re my strength. 

4.       

Self-manage increasing

Ini juga lumayan berhasil. Nilai-nilai mulai menunjukkan perubahan yang signifikan dan berarti aku sudah cukup berhasil me-manage waktu belajar dan waktu main. Tapi sialnya harus kehilangan sebagian besar waktu main buat sekedar belajar. And i believe it will worth a lot sooner or later.

5.      Being a team with someone.

Done perfectly. We have moved on together.

Hemat

Kurang berhasil. Pengeluaran untuk bahan-bahan pengisi perut cukup menguras kocek dengan sangat dalam. Dan udah lama banget enggak dikasih uang saku sama Ayah. Hmm.. Nggak papa deh.

7.      Lighter? Nevermind.

8.     Done Class’ problems with miracle.

Failed at the first time. We got such a BIGGEST trouble in our history. And finally, we apologized each other. Problems solved.

March

Maret aku sama sekali gak sempet nulis diary. Bener-bener bulan yang suram.

April

The most exciting month this early year! Di awal bulan aku udah outing sama mom and dad ke madiun, shopped some kinda shoes for ourselves. Kebetulan disana lagi ada promo beli satu gratis satu, merek Yongki Komaladi! Dan yaa, cewek + diskon gede = pelampiasan pada kaum pria. Jadilah ayah saya nunggu diluar karena gak tahan. O iya, ketemu wedges bagus-bagus disana, tapi i decided not to buy any karena bentar lagi liburan dan pasti nanti barang baru lebih bagus dari yang sekarang. He he ;) Akhirnya aku beli moccasin!

Try out awal bulan ini bener-bener buruk banget. Worst TO i ever done! Dari semua mapel paling sedikit salah 7! Godverdomme. Dan at last aku melepas pilihan SA Malang dan memfokuskan diri ke SMAN 1 dan nungguin pengumuman SA Bogor. Baiklah, wish me luck guys!

April 4th. A great day with Ghozy Habibi. Waktu itu sore-sore, aku lagi nonton The Way Back di Fox Movie Premium, lagi gak smsan sama Monkey dan dihibur sama dia. First of all tiba-tiba kita ngobrolin masa depan dan .. kita berdua tahu kita gak sanggup ngadepin perpisahan. Selama ini mungkin kita udah dekat, terlalu dekat untuk sebuah hubungan beratas namakan ‘persahabatan’. Atau haruskah kita namakan ini ‘persaudaraan’, brother? Kita juga gak tahu. Yang aku inget Cuma, ini kesimpen di folderku..

“Janjio neng aku awak dewe ki gak bakal misahne awak dewe masio awak dewe gak iso face2face masio long distance awak dewe kudu tetep ngene iki.”

“Aku yo janji ng kowe. JANJI :)”

“Aku nangis ndul sumpah. Hahaha”

Dan ya sudah. Yang aku tahu beberapa hari habis itu dia putus sama ceweknya.

April 17th. Afan, Entis dan Jibanz gelut di parkiran. Kinda don't want to talk bout 'em. Hari itu saya dapet film bagus judulnya Taare Zameen Par, baguuus banget sampe dinangis-nangisin aku! :’D Malemnya pergi ke bookfair dan ketemu Nylon, love at the first sight.

April 20th. Ma brother went home! Saat saat menyenangkan bersamanya pun dimulai. Tapi sayang dia harus meninggalkan rumah, bersama ceweknya, untuk apa sodara? Nonton Avenged Sevenfold. Sedangkan saya? Mau liat Suju aja GAK BOLEH. Dammit. Baiklah, istighfar gundul.. istighfar..

At the end of April, sebuah kabar datang dari negeri antah berantah. Seseorang menelpon ayahku saat beliau sedang bekerja, dan sebaiknya ini kabar baik karena seseorang telah mengganggu saat berharga seseorang yang lain. Beliau menutup teleponnya, kemudian menelepon ibuku. Kemudian ibuku pulang dengan airmata beterjunan di pipinya. Waktu itu aku baru pulang main dari rumahnya Nabela sama Elementary School pals ku dan sampai di rumah dengan hati senang tak alang kepalang. 

Kamis aku akan berangkat to the city of nowhere. Ke negeri antah berantah yang aku bahkan tak pernah sekalipun menginjaknya. Mencari segala sesuatu yang dapat dicari. Dan meraih segala sesuatu yang dapat diraih. Aku akan merelakan sebagian diriku di sini, dan kau. Demi negeri itu. Aku rela. Apalagi kakakku juga akan leaving on a jet plane, don’t know when he’ll be back again. Starts from August,  ma birthday. I’m gonna miss him SO MUCH. {}

Akhirnya aku tinggalkan SMA 1, walau aku bisa masuk kesana tanpa tes, tapi hatiku ada di negeri itu, dan aku harus berlari kesana mengambilnya atau aku akan mati tak berhati. Akan kusiapkan diriku sebaik mungkin untuk bisa jadi sesuatu yang kau harapkan selama ini. aku akan meyakinkanmu bahwa akulah yang kau tunggu, akulah bagian dari dirimu yang selama ini hilang. Akulah yang kau cari, aku yang penuhi. Aku mencintaimu sepenuh hati dan akan kuambil hati yang lama kau renggut dariku. Akan kuambil dan membiarkanmu mengambil sebagian dari hatiku untuk menjadi milikmu selamanya.

Nice to hear about you, Bogor :)

Dan at last, we all celebrate this with an outing to Madiun again! Haha. Naasa wanted some new cool shoes and he got his League one, and i bought a Nevada brand—looks like an original TOMS Shoes i really want. Yes it is fake but, it was worth it! :D

And these are some pictures i and Naasa took then. Sebagian agak blurry tapi masih oke untuk dipajang. Heha!

yang dibawah diambil di rumah..

 itu hadiah kaos. Mas dapet kaosnya, saya cuman setikernya ._.

 itu teman tidur saya, Gee :)

Painté

On a holy night, those were what i'm doing..

and this is the result !

Oh, too blurry? Sorry, i was purposing not to publish it! HAHA :D