Faded Glory

Sebuah Sulak. Terambil pada pagi yang cerah oleh seorang gadis kriwil kurang kerjaan. Berjongkok manis di teras dengan kamera di tangannya. Dan, boo! Mereka tertangkap lensa begitu saja. (Resize and exposure check only with Photoshop CS4)

Baiklah i picked the good ones. Thanks for visiting, guys! Ciao! |..!

The Rendezvous

Iyiyi! I won't talk much just let you know i've been from Jogja aaand so right i went there to get some good view in my Candy. Check 'em out!

Nobody but Me

26 12 2011

Prambanan Temple, Jogjakarta

EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm

I'm Here, Buddy

26 12 2011

Prambanan Temple, Jogjakarta

EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm

You Hide My Sunset

26 12 2011

Parangtritis, Jogjakarta

EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm

Shut, Survive

26 12 2011

Parangtritis, Jogjakarta

EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm

Dominance

26 12 2011

Prambanan Temple, Jogjakarta

EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm

  

Pour

26 12 2011

 Parangtritis, Jogjakarta

EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm
 

You Can Stand Under My Umbrella

26 12 2011

Prambanan Temple, Jogjakarta

EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm

Sandy Secure

26 12 2011

Parangtritis, Jogjakarta

EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm

Chase The Light

26 12 2011

Paranngtritis, Jogjakarta

EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm

 

Perspective

26 12 2011

Parangtritis, Jogjakarta

EOS 1100D

EF-S 18-55mm

 And that was how i let waves swept myself,

So far away ...

Though I Call

I already know what you’re gonna say. I wanna keep it away. I don’t never wanna let you go ..

Don’t say a thing, don’t turn back, I already know that you are going to say. With my head down I keep looking at my watch, My heart is clenching.

If I look at you without any words, I can’t stand it because I’m so nervous, I keep calling your name .. But you don’t answer.

Why?

The conversations and words, our meetings and our times keeps getting shorter, I can’t send you away like this.
Don’t leave, I don’t want to forget you
I only have you
I’m still loving you you
Don’t pretend like you don’t know my love, because you know everything..

Bye bye ..
Your words are a lie,
My eyes cry,

Tonight ...

Okay, I already know, but,
Like how old clothes get the warn out spots, our love shared a lot of times.
Unlike the beginning, it’s just pausing for a while.
After speaking of farewell, I know for sure that you will definitely regret it.
I will give you plenty of time for you to swallow the words you are holding in your heart...

Why?

After saying that you love me, how can you turn away so easily?
I will change, anything works so just tell me what to change. The answer to our problems is never farewell. If the love between you and I froze like a thorn in the cold winter, I’ll try to melt it again.

You, you, just like now, just don’t let go of my hands ...

Bye bye,
My words are a lie,
My eyes cry,
Tonight ....

Bite of haha ^^

aku pengene ngene...
aku pengene ngono...
pengen iki pengen iku akeh tunggale...
kabeh... kabeh...kabehe.....iso dikabulake..
iso dikabulke nganggo kresek ajaib...
aku pengen mabur bebas neng angkoso..
*oooyy kinciran pring*
la la la... aku tresno buanget...









DO-RA-EEEEEE-MON !!! :D ♥

Today Was A Fairy Tale

Wondering. I was on the hardest time in my life. Like won a free-fall contest. I was the first and nobody wanted to deal with that. Thats ironic i wanted to let myself die behind the curtain with a sacrificed post displayed on my notebook screen. Awesome, i’ve never felt so hurt before i saw and know you—A funny tall thin man with a most sharp gaze i could drop dead. It was 12am and i was still crying in my bed. Hoped someone would love to understand me but i was sad like hell. 1am, someone messaged me and said

“You know that i’m thinking of you right now?”
“Yeah, but nothing will done even i tell you the truth, just know that i’m sad, you don’t need to know the reason.”
“I do need it. I know who you are. I know what you gonna do and I won’t let you go farther. Tell me right now .. Trust me, sweetheart.”

Err, i was thinking a lot. His last message just made me cried worse. He knew about him and me. How could i be in love with him like crazy in 3 years and what hell i did along these time. But okay. I told him. He finally won my heart. I fell asleep ...


**

... Ia hanyalah seseorang yang terlalu nyata untukku saat ini. sedangkan dia? Aku, dengannya, bagai hidup dalam cerita fiksi yang tak jelas pelariannya. Menjalani kisah dengannya seperti membaca novel fiksi yang tak berhalaman akhir, tak juga bersambung. Sudahlah, aku menyerah, Tuhan, dan kau, maafkan aku. Jauh dari dalam hatiku, aku meminta maaf padamu. Maafkan kerapuhanku, maafkan jiwaku yang ternyata sepengecut ini.  aku pun tak pernah menyangka aku akan mengambil keputusan ini. maafkan aku jika kau ternyata merindukanku jug. Aku tak menyalahkanmu, aku .. aku hanya terjebak. Jejakmu tak berarti. Menelusurinya setiap hari hanya membuatku semakin terjebak oleh misteri-misteri yang terus muncul di otakku yang sudah sumpek. Maafkan aku, sungguh .. Maafkan aku, karena aku memendam perasaan seperti ini. Aku mencintaimu. Tapi kau tak pernah datang. Aku

                                                              

Dan lagi, terimakasih atas pelajaran yang kau berikan untukku. Aku sungguh belajar dewasa darimu. Terimakasih telah mengajariku cara mencintai seseorang yang sesungguhnya. Aku akan belajar menyayanginya sepenuhnya..

Yeah i picked them from a short story made by myself. And you guys know what? I done the whole story before that condoled night. Actually i really know that the story just like a curse in my life and i was purposing to made that so the real ending is a mystery. And yes, i’m with him now. A big tall monster with a LOT of love. Actually i’m just as tall as half of his shoulder when i stood up right in his side. Hehe But, WHATEVER ! He’s like a prince of mine on a fairy tale. A happy ending is the purpose. Wait, are you understand? Well, i confess, i loved them two at the same time. HAHA~ :D

Wanna know who’s him?

When you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you ♥

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way ...

So let’s remember to a morning on a school when she hugged you and tried to show that she was missing but you ran away with no words. And the day when she was quarreled with you and tried to take a topic about her day but you ignored. Also, the day when se met her friends, said a hello and got no response.

Yes, that’s annoying when someone you loved ignored you. It’s a holy suck you wanna cry but nowhere to run and share. And actually we all know that you’ve been tricked. Yeah, you’re tricked!

Then it was 21th December morning, still no hope for lots of happy birthday greetings for her beloved. 10am she started to cry, and Bramasto sang a poetry but it just made her cry louder than before. Nobody at home remembered. The other dang men just stared at her and got a blank in his mind for all his plots with me. Finally, i entered her class and sang ..

“Happy birthday to you..

Happy birthday to you ..

Happy birthday sahabatku ..

Happy birthday to you..”

Stucked and hell-yeah, we hugged each other so badly. She looked at my face with her eyes red—full of tears and said “I miss you”. Her eyes just so right.

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be

...

And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen

Day goes by and just then i sat down to write this. A super beautiful night to me and them. Had no bla-bla-bla and just went there to buy a tart. But, “Aku ngutang ya?” Ghozy said and okay done. The surprise was fail because of her mother actually (swear i can’t tell here. Hehe), and his father didn’t make the situation got better with said “Masya Allah”, how innocence. But we were really there, a lotsa prayers and wishes cracked up on her mind. The candles just blown up and the candlelight party was over.

I love to remember her seemed so awkward with that little tragedy. And got so much worse when Farhan came spontaneously. She gave some cakes to her mother first, to me, Ghozy, then Farhan that came last. Nyumm :9

Finally, the little spark closed. I just kiss her cheeks and said “Happy birthday, dear”. Wondered when will we have a time just like this that now seems so impossible. I was very glad, i am. And i hope she feel the same, let her be happy for the rest of her life. ♥

But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now

 (our new Romeo and Juliette.Hehe)

No, they are just a bit i wanna tell you. More than your rest of time to tell everything about her and us. There’s a mighty capacity of memories lies behind. Does she know that I love her a lot? Don’t mind. I only realized she’s now fifteen and it would just a big chance for her to change everything that has been necessary unchanged. So thanks God to gave her a long life, good luck, sweetheart. I love you :) 

Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors ...

umkajej supahgnem

And.. this 'really good news' been the dessert of my perfect day. Thanks a lot, 비 .. For every fight i won and lost in the name of you. For the years i've been waiting and your messed me in second. I don't blind and i know that's referred to me. thanks for wasting my all prayer and wishes. I know i gotta do a big red mark on my wishlist then. You really taught me a lot. Thank. You.

"미련없이 바로 너를 선택했어.."

                                                 Park Jungsu

Irony

.. lidah bisa menghancurkan baja

                                          - Ghozy Habibi




.. that sweetest evening ended by my story told to Shofia, by my question answered by Ghozy, the deadly gaze he couldn't stop, the rolling pressure from this tiny academy, the grass that looked me crying, and the clouds that never stop defend theirselves from sunshine glory. Here, i found the sky changing everytime, i breath the strange atmosphere. Light is never enough when everyone scrambled to get the first position of everyone's idol. And how 'bout us? They just don't get it. Your all tongues just don't has any rib.


"I'm just what you see, this is me,"

Ya. A super big arrogance you'd never want to understand. Just a remembrance for our wasted ironies.

.. Irony above irony.