Today Was A Fairy Tale

Wondering. I was on the hardest time in my life. Like won a free-fall contest. I was the first and nobody wanted to deal with that. Thats ironic i wanted to let myself die behind the curtain with a sacrificed post displayed on my notebook screen. Awesome, i’ve never felt so hurt before i saw and know you—A funny tall thin man with a most sharp gaze i could drop dead. It was 12am and i was still crying in my bed. Hoped someone would love to understand me but i was sad like hell. 1am, someone messaged me and said

“You know that i’m thinking of you right now?”
“Yeah, but nothing will done even i tell you the truth, just know that i’m sad, you don’t need to know the reason.”
“I do need it. I know who you are. I know what you gonna do and I won’t let you go farther. Tell me right now .. Trust me, sweetheart.”

Err, i was thinking a lot. His last message just made me cried worse. He knew about him and me. How could i be in love with him like crazy in 3 years and what hell i did along these time. But okay. I told him. He finally won my heart. I fell asleep ...


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... Ia hanyalah seseorang yang terlalu nyata untukku saat ini. sedangkan dia? Aku, dengannya, bagai hidup dalam cerita fiksi yang tak jelas pelariannya. Menjalani kisah dengannya seperti membaca novel fiksi yang tak berhalaman akhir, tak juga bersambung. Sudahlah, aku menyerah, Tuhan, dan kau, maafkan aku. Jauh dari dalam hatiku, aku meminta maaf padamu. Maafkan kerapuhanku, maafkan jiwaku yang ternyata sepengecut ini.  aku pun tak pernah menyangka aku akan mengambil keputusan ini. maafkan aku jika kau ternyata merindukanku jug. Aku tak menyalahkanmu, aku .. aku hanya terjebak. Jejakmu tak berarti. Menelusurinya setiap hari hanya membuatku semakin terjebak oleh misteri-misteri yang terus muncul di otakku yang sudah sumpek. Maafkan aku, sungguh .. Maafkan aku, karena aku memendam perasaan seperti ini. Aku mencintaimu. Tapi kau tak pernah datang. Aku

                                                              

Dan lagi, terimakasih atas pelajaran yang kau berikan untukku. Aku sungguh belajar dewasa darimu. Terimakasih telah mengajariku cara mencintai seseorang yang sesungguhnya. Aku akan belajar menyayanginya sepenuhnya..

Yeah i picked them from a short story made by myself. And you guys know what? I done the whole story before that condoled night. Actually i really know that the story just like a curse in my life and i was purposing to made that so the real ending is a mystery. And yes, i’m with him now. A big tall monster with a LOT of love. Actually i’m just as tall as half of his shoulder when i stood up right in his side. Hehe But, WHATEVER ! He’s like a prince of mine on a fairy tale. A happy ending is the purpose. Wait, are you understand? Well, i confess, i loved them two at the same time. HAHA~ :D

Wanna know who’s him?