21.12.11

When you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you ♥

You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors
It's the morning of your very first day
And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
Try and stay out of everybody's way
...

So let’s remember to a morning on a school when she hugged you and tried to show that she was missing but you ran away with no words. And the day when she was quarreled with you and tried to take a topic about her day but you ignored. Also, the day when se met her friends, said a hello and got no response.
Yes, that’s annoying when someone you loved ignored you. It’s a holy suck you wanna cry but nowhere to run and share. And actually we all know that you’ve been tricked. Yeah, you’re tricked!
Then it was 21th December morning, still no hope for lots of happy birthday greetings for her beloved. 10am she started to cry, and Bramasto sang a poetry but it just made her cry louder than before. Nobody at home remembered. The other dang men just stared at her and got a blank in his mind for all his plots with me. Finally, i entered her class and sang ..
“Happy birthday to you..
Happy birthday to you ..
Happy birthday sahabatku ..
Happy birthday to you..”
Stucked and hell-yeah, we hugged each other so badly. She looked at my face with her eyes red—full of tears and said “I miss you”. Her eyes just so right.

'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out
Well, count to ten, take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
...
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen


Day goes by and just then i sat down to write this. A super beautiful night to me and them. Had no bla-bla-bla and just went there to buy a tart. But, “Aku ngutang ya?” Ghozy said and okay done. The surprise was fail because of her mother actually (swear i can’t tell here. Hehe), and his father didn’t make the situation got better with said “Masya Allah”, how innocence. But we were really there, a lotsa prayers and wishes cracked up on her mind. The candles just blown up and the candlelight party was over.

I love to remember her seemed so awkward with that little tragedy. And got so much worse when Farhan came spontaneously. She gave some cakes to her mother first, to me, Ghozy, then Farhan that came last. Nyumm :9

Finally, the little spark closed. I just kiss her cheeks and said “Happy birthday, dear”. Wondered when will we have a time just like this that now seems so impossible. I was very glad, i am. And i hope she feel the same, let her be happy for the rest of her life. ♥
But in your life you'll do things greater than
Dating the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fiftee
n
When all you wanted was to be wanted
Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now


 (our new Romeo and Juliette.Hehe)


No, they are just a bit i wanna tell you. More than your rest of time to tell everything about her and us. There’s a mighty capacity of memories lies behind. Does she know that I love her a lot? Don’t mind. I only realized she’s now fifteen and it would just a big chance for her to change everything that has been necessary unchanged. So thanks God to gave her a long life, good luck, sweetheart. I love you :) 


Take a deep breath girl
Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors ...

19.12.11

umkajej supahgnem






And.. this 'really good news' been the dessert of my perfect day. Thanks a lot, 비 .. For every fight i won and lost in the name of you. For the years i've been waiting and your messed me in second. I don't blind and i know that's referred to me. thanks for wasting my all prayer and wishes. I know i gotta do a big red mark on my wishlist then. You really taught me a lot. Thank. You.






"미련없이 바로 너를 선택했어.."
                                                 Park Jungsu

1.12.11

Irony

.. lidah bisa menghancurkan baja
                                          - Ghozy Habibi




.. that sweetest evening ended by my story told to Shofia, by my question answered by Ghozy, the deadly gaze he couldn't stop, the rolling pressure from this tiny academy, the grass that looked me crying, and the clouds that never stop defend theirselves from sunshine glory. Here, i found the sky changing everytime, i breath the strange atmosphere. Light is never enough when everyone scrambled to get the first position of everyone's idol. And how 'bout us? They just don't get it. Your all tongues just don't has any rib.


"I'm just what you see, this is me,"

Ya. A super big arrogance you'd never want to understand. Just a remembrance for our wasted ironies.

.. Irony above irony.